This is not an easy letter to write, because even though I probably never met you, my heart is breaking for you. I have prayed and agonized over you like a woman in labor, and I desperately wish you could be with me now-where we were all created to be, in the presence of our God, where there is joy unspeakable.
There have been many books about prophecy & dramatic stories about what may happen in the "End Times" or "Latter Days" but the only reliable source has been and will always continue to be the word of God. Throughout the Old Testament and continuing through the New Testament, everything has been foretold--the prophecies are sealed until the proper time-that is, no one can understand them completely until they are being fulfilled.
Study these, of course, but what is most important for you right now is to understand that no matter what you have been taught, or thought you knew, you need to take an inventory and see who you are, and where you are in God's history and plan for your future. Yes, future-there is a future hope! Our God knows His plans for you-and those plans are for good, and not for evil. Are you willing to say "yes" to God?
First you must be willing to say "yes" to Jesus, or Y'shua (the Jewish way to say Jesus). The bible tells us He came to die for our sins, and rose again on the third day. In the darkness that must surround you now, this may seem incredible, but pray (which is talking with God, expecting an answer) and ask Him to show you if it is true. And ask Him to help you find an unaltered or unabridged bible-and ask Him to help you understand it! I suggest you start with the gospels-the first books of the New Testament, which are eyewitness accounts of Jesus' life here on earth--start with John, and then Romans 3:10 And then read through Romans; at least through chapter 10.
When you are ready (and sincere) pray something like this:
"God, I know I have sinned against you and I want to turn from my sins. I believe you provided Jesus as an atonement for me. With this prayer, I receive Jesus as my Savior and my Lord. Thank you God for cleansing me of sin and for sealing my name in your Book of Life forever. Amen!"
And the bible tells us even the angels rejoice with you! You may or may not have an emotional experience after you commit your life to Y'shua-keep studying His written word, keep talking with Him, and if possible, find other believers for fellowship and encouragement. You made the correct decision, Dear One! Please remember to pray for others to know the truth, just as we have prayed for you.